Saturday, May 07, 2005
It has been a LOOOOOOOONG time, hasn't it? Hello all.
But what can I say, really? The past 3 weeks has been a blur of slogging through the Army, and weekends of lazing around, staring at the computer, living a life I've never had. In the meantime, I've managed to forget everything else, forget about what I used to be. Now, I'm a mere drone, doing what has to be done (or avoiding doing it), not putting much effort into doing anything at all. Well, perhaps except for my online role-playings, in fact, RPing has become almost the only thing in my life that I look forward to.
I remember when I used to be able to expand my mind in many different ways. Literature, chatting about life with friends, writing poetry, and at the end of the day, summing it all up with a good post in this blog, noting a day in my life worth talking about. Now all that has disappeared, and I am numb with the everyday toil that eventually teaches nothing of real intellectual value. But then, that's the Army for you. What do they really teach you anyway, except learn how to fire guns, adhere to a strict regime, take orders, and generally don't think about the meaningful things in life? Nothing. You're just being moulded to fit better into the autocratic system that is the society of Singapore, being forced into an indistinguishable shape that's not much different from the next Singaporean around you. Your unique thoughts are nothing, an imperfection to be wiped out from the model that is the perfect Singaporean, the perfect worker who just wants to get through life comfortably by being subject to whatever demands the Singaporean system demands on you.
But then again, who cares? Certainly not Singapore. Maybe those Big Ones Up there will come after me for such words, but what can I say? I've said all I wanted to say about this matter. You want to hate me? Fine. I can't be bothered. Go ahead and prove to the world how narrow-minded you all are.
I say no more. Now feel free to blast away.
But what can I say, really? The past 3 weeks has been a blur of slogging through the Army, and weekends of lazing around, staring at the computer, living a life I've never had. In the meantime, I've managed to forget everything else, forget about what I used to be. Now, I'm a mere drone, doing what has to be done (or avoiding doing it), not putting much effort into doing anything at all. Well, perhaps except for my online role-playings, in fact, RPing has become almost the only thing in my life that I look forward to.
I remember when I used to be able to expand my mind in many different ways. Literature, chatting about life with friends, writing poetry, and at the end of the day, summing it all up with a good post in this blog, noting a day in my life worth talking about. Now all that has disappeared, and I am numb with the everyday toil that eventually teaches nothing of real intellectual value. But then, that's the Army for you. What do they really teach you anyway, except learn how to fire guns, adhere to a strict regime, take orders, and generally don't think about the meaningful things in life? Nothing. You're just being moulded to fit better into the autocratic system that is the society of Singapore, being forced into an indistinguishable shape that's not much different from the next Singaporean around you. Your unique thoughts are nothing, an imperfection to be wiped out from the model that is the perfect Singaporean, the perfect worker who just wants to get through life comfortably by being subject to whatever demands the Singaporean system demands on you.
But then again, who cares? Certainly not Singapore. Maybe those Big Ones Up there will come after me for such words, but what can I say? I've said all I wanted to say about this matter. You want to hate me? Fine. I can't be bothered. Go ahead and prove to the world how narrow-minded you all are.
I say no more. Now feel free to blast away.
